你对我的想法，请不要停留在两年前。

我不再是那个低着头走路的那位女孩。
我不再是那个摆着一张苦瓜脸的那位女孩。
我不再是那个可以一整天说不上两句话的那位女孩。

我比以前自信了一些。
我比以前开朗了一些。
我比以前多话了一些。

现在的我。变了。
我变得不再给人欺负了。

只是，人对另一个人的想法太固执。
你可能变了。
但是，外人对你的看法还停留在两年前。
But, the human's mind is stubborn.
You may have changed as a person, but the hearts of other people's perception is unwilling.

Being an outcast for my years in secondary school, I think it was rather unexpected that I decided to go back, the second time in two years.

When a friend asked why, my reply was that I wanted to relive my memories spent there, both good and bad. But, for the most of it, the bad. I wanted to relive myself of all the bad memories, so that I wouldn't forget what good a position I am in now. Not very good, it seems. But, at the end of it all, I guess I got more than I bargained for. And, like for every event that a creature of habit adds on to my list, it never did turn out good. Instead, it left a tingling bitter sensation in me.

这是不是报应？
以前对别人的不理不睬，换来他们今日的冷淡。

看着他们对我朋友180 度转变的态度，
坦白说，我不喜欢一窝锋迎面而来的情绪。
羡慕与嫉妒，只限一线之差。
我不想自己踏过那微妙的线条。

太迟了。
我才发现是我过去几年留给人家的印象。

And, once an impression of you has been formed in someone else's mind, it becomes almost impossible to break that mould.
And, when everyone expects that of you, you sink into the comfort of that mould.
But, is that what you really want?

How many times have you heard someone saying, "That's so unlike you."
Do you feel a flare inside you then, demanding to know what then is the real you, and when others have created boundaries and restrictions to the way you can or cannot behave.

You feel a need to prove them wrong.
That there is something in you, a side that few or no one has seen.
That there is a wealth of information one has to discover in you.
And, that, you are not as predictable as it may seems.

人的脑类似一个memory card,
可是，他们忘了，储存起来的资料是不会变。
可是，人不是一个 constant，永远在变。
所以，你对他人的 impression 不应该是一个 stagnant。

Maybe, it's time to think of others on a clean slate. Wipe off all bad memories of that person, and pretend you're meeting a stranger for the first time. Only when you let go of those 'false' impressions, then can you create freedom for that person to act differently, and only then can you create a renewed impression of that person.